To My Heart

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To My Heart
by Shishir Salvatore on Saturday, December 18, 2010 at 2:02pm

Dear heart, it's been quite a while now

You've been though a lot,some happy, some sad

But we won't get into when, where and how

I say we enjoy the good and forget the bad



You've been my friend in happiness and in pain

So I say we forget the past and start over again



No more pain for you,no more heart brakes

We'll be happy even if we are on our own

No more false promises,I'll do what it takes

I was childish before,but now I've grown



You did your part, I never thought you were there

So heart, together we'll go far, some place elsewhere



We had decent times together,some nice memories

But then I cared for others more than I did for you

I put a lock on you and gave someone else the keys

Both of us suffered bad due to me, that's true



You tried to tell me, you tried to warn,you tried your best

But I was in a frenzy then,but you never took a rest



Now that I am alone again , it's just you and me

You've had enough, much more than your own share

Now that I am in the light, finally I can see

You are fragile, and from now I'll handle you with care

How will it be?

For now, the times are fresh and merry
For now, the days seem to rush by
For now, life's sweet as plum and cherry
For now you don't have a reason to cry

But how will it be when times are slow?
How will it be then, how will it be?

For now you may seem to have it all
For now you may fail to understand
For now you may think you tower tall
For now you think you will forever stand

But how will it be when you lay down low?
Hoe will it be then, how will it be ?

For now you may have friends, too many
For now you may have all the money
For now you don't keep track of any
For now you spend all, penny by penny

But how will it be when friends say no?
How will it be then, how will it be?

For now, you don't care about the next
For now you seem to live like a king
For now, future for you is just a text
For now, you don't care what tomorrow will bring

But how will it be when tomorrow says hello?
How will it be then, how will it be?

Autumn Of my Life

The picture that was once new and bright
Is now colored in a golden brown hue
The corners that were once bold and tight
Have started to fray, they are no longer new

All of this, as I face the first autumn of my life

Every fresh dream that was there is now dead
Scattered in corners waiting to be thrown
My memories are stale,old books that were never read
I walk alone going from unknown to unknown

All of this, as I face the first autumn of my life

The winds of change have gone a little more cold
The nights are chill and lonely, the days are dull
I discover facets I had never known, never told
Every time I strain my ears, all I hear is a silent lull

All of this, as I face the first autumn of my life

As the winds make me shiver a little more
As I all I joined starts to tear,starts to fray
As my dreams die, my wound grows a little sore
Makes me feel this autumn, it's here to stay

My...Not,,

My silence is not my weakness
I just wait for you to hear it
My love is not my madness
I just wait for you to feel it
My wait for you is not my solace
I just wait for you to look back
My loneliness is not my fault
I just left the others for you
My sorrow is not my grief
I gladly gave my joys to you
My wounds are not my pain
I never cried while you gave them
My future is not mine anymore
I always thought about your ’s first
My time is not mine anymore
I never got any that was free from you
My dreams are not free now
It’s the only place where you find time
My smile is not for others now
I always save it for you in case you look
My tears are not my choice
I just wait for you to see them
My death is not my will
I live each second to live a second with you

Each Heartbeat At A Time

Though we might not the best each day each time
We'll be better , each time when we realize
Though we might not be able to keep up with the rest
We'' take it slowly, each heartbeat at a time

Though we might not have a palace to live in
We'll make every house a home, you and me
Though others might have more, we'll have enough
We'll make it worth, each heartbeat at a time

Though I might not be there every time you cry
I'll always be there each time to make you smile
Though we might have some rough roads ahead
We'll drive slow, each heartbeat at a time

Though I might not be able to give you everything
I'll always be there , I'll always be by your side
Though sometimes we'll not be there to see each other
We'll still be there, each heartbeat at a time

Burning Still

There was once a fire that you set ablaze

A fire inside me, a fire that was new to me

You wanted the heat, I kept on burning

You wanted the light, I kept on shining



When you were warn enough, you went away

But the fire still remains, I am burning still



All those nights, all the times when it was dark

I was near you, you were never alone at night

You were asleep ,for you I kept on burning

You were alone , for you I kept on shining



When it was bright day, you went away

But the fire remains, I am burning still



There were times that you had no one around

I did my best, my flames tried to make you happy

Though it hurt me a bit, I kept on burning

Though it was not my choice, I kept on shining



When you found your friends, you went away

But the fire remains, I am burning still



There was a time when you liked the sparks

There was a time when you loved the glow

For that happiness, I kept on burning

For that glow, I kept on shining



When ashes remained, you went away

But the fire remains, see , I am burning still

I am still there

The rocks have weathered down a bit
People don’t come here, nor they sit
It’s a place forgotten but I still care
You left me here but I am still there

There’s the familiar old run down mill
I look for you there everyday still
There’s the statue of the lady so fair
You are not present but I am still there

Remember the lovely autumn sun
And the ripe apples we had so much fun
There’s the swing, empty now, a blank stare
You are gone but I am still there

Whenever you ever blink you lovely eyes
Or when you look up at the open skies
Whenever you ever breathe fresh air
Just remember I am waiting I am still there

I an still there

The rocks have weathered down a bit
People don’t come here, nor they sit
It’s a place forgotten but I still care
You left me here but I am still there

There’s the familiar old run down mill
I look for you there everyday still
There’s the statue of the lady so fair
You are not present but I am still there

Remember the lovely autumn sun
And the ripe apples we had so much fun
There’s the swing, empty now, a blank stare
You are gone but I am still there

Whenever you ever blink you lovely eyes
Or when you look up at the open skies
Whenever you ever breathe fresh air
Just remember I am waiting I am still there

Open Blue Sky

I wonder what all has changed from then
It’s been so long I don’t quite know when
When was it when I decided to decide
I left you but you will always with me reside

I tried to convince you but you didn’t try
So here I was alone under the open blue sky

It was a difficult path this life, so many days
I felt lonely and was a stranger to the new ways
But I decided to stick around I had to fight
I had a mission and I had that in sight

So I did not give up neither did I cry
When I struggled alone under the open blue sky

Soon life adopted me like I was its own
I was gathering pieces that were usually thrown
And then my life started to have its own name
I was now a familiar player, not new to this game

I gave my life a meaning and more did I try
Every time I thought of you under the open blue sky
What you had sown earlier now I do reap
I bundled my past away and put it in a heap
Now I get what I want I live my dreams
I don’t miss you now or so it seems

Earlier I used to walk but now I have learnt to fly
Now I rule , I rule under the open blue sky

A Last Song

Music loved him and she was his first love
As beautiful and as pure as a young dove
He was getting famous with every passing day
But destiny was against him, it had it's say

He fell in love with her, he loved her so
His eyes showed it , so did their glow
He wrote his finest piece for her, a song
He spent hours on it, working very long

He had decided that for her he would sing
And his song for his love would surely bring
Her to the bridge outside the town at eight
So he prepared it and he did patiently wait

It was mid december and it was freezing cold
But he waited for her his young heart still bold
When she did not come he played his song
Surely she must be one her way, not much long

He waited for her hours passed away quick
He was growing colder, he was growing sick
But he did not stop playing his favorite song
She might be caught up, it won't be too long

She did not turn up the entire day entire night
People say he played all the time with all his might
They also say he was dead long before he knew
Most laughed at him , but some did not, a few

Even after his death he did not take a rest
After all it was for his love, the song, the best
People say he's still there they still throng
On chilly nights near the bridge to hear his song

For my friends

Life is too tough in itself to make ammends
Maybe that is why we have our friends
Even strangers will make merry with you
But that is not only what true friends do
They stand by you when times are tough
They don’t abandon the ship ,when seas are rough
So today take out a moment, you should do
And tell them you are lucky, or just sat THANK YOU

LOVE

Love , till now this was a just a word for me
My vision was hazy I could never really see
You were always beside me, you were there
Love was always next to me, why go elsewhere
You had always been the one, the girl I knew
Now that I realize my heart skips a beat, a few
Why do I feel this pain when we don’t talk
Why does the longest road with you is just a walk
Please don’t reject me , for it’ll make me blue
Today I say to you truly I LOVE YOU

Kiiling Me Softly

The night was lovely, the air was chill
She looked beautiful, dressed to kill
It all seemed too good almost like a trance
I put my hand forward asking her for a dance

There was nobody there we were all alone
The setting was romantic, it had the right tone
She was looking lovely, I fell in love again
I wanted to confess it, was too hard to restrain

We danced to the tune, almost like one
I said ‘I love you’ but there was no response, none
I felt something weird a sharp pain instead
She had a gun, she shot me with pellets of lead

It was like a dream I felt no pain hence
I gazed at her face, it made no sense
Why did she kill me, I loved her so
She had my heart but she wanted the torso

I lied down there while she walked away
Not even glancing at me as I was a cast away
I loved her still, as my heart grew stiller
She was my love, she was my killer

Confessions Of A Terrorist

"Muzammil Ibrahim , it is time to go"

I get up , wash my face for the last time and take a final look at my cell. It was very dark, dingy and used to get very cold during nights. Not a very homely setting, true. But these are the kinds of cells that are generally given to hardcore terrorists, I was no exception.

I walk out of my cell, the guards bolt the door behind me. The cell had become quite a familiar place for me probably because I had been living there for six months . I vividly remember the scene when the judge had said "Muzammil Ibrahim , you are found guilty of participating in the killing of innocent people going to the 'Akshardhaam' .You are awarded death penalty , to be hanged till death"

As I was walking towards my fate , I thought " Had I always been like this?"

A spontaneous answer came from within "No"

It was true, I was once a successful engineer with a recognized degree. "Then what triggered me to become what I am today?"

I remember. How can I forget that day. No father can forget , nor endure what I had. I had held the emaciated body of my son in my hands. He had been stabbed so badly I could not recognize his face. His wounds outnumbered the hair in my head. What kind of a father would remain normal after that. I lost all sense of logic, all sense of right and wrong. I had to take revenge but my enemy was anonymous . So I set forward to take revenge from the entire world.

What followed were very hard days. I joined a group of fanatics who were hell bent on 'jihaad'. I did not like them nor their concepts but they were the easiest way I would get my revenge so I stuck around with them.There was a lot of agitation among us. We were very different , only one thing united us 'hatred'.We were given militant training , we were trained to kill. After many months of training and brain washing we had become machines to kill , machines who would shoot on a single order. We did not know who were the people we were going to kill, we just knew that we had to kill.

Now when I reflect on alll this I realize I have become what I hated the most. My son was killed,I was wronged. How many sons did I kill, how many wives did I widow? I can't remember. What will I answer allah when he questions me . How will I answer my son?

The guards escort me to the place where I will be hanged. The sunlight stings my eyes.

I am escorted to the raised platform , my hands are tied.

Jailer - "Muzammil Ibrahim any last wish?"

Stop all this hatred , this killing. It does no good. My son was killed, I killed many to take my revenge , this has to stop.But I think I had lost my right to wish a long time back

"No"' I say

The black cloth is draped around my face.I close my eyes, that was the last ray of light I was ever going to see..............

A 5p success story

Genere- Fiction
Introducing charecters –
10p – a guy with cg 10 :P
5p- a guy with cg 5 \m/
Anna – a very beautiful gal
C.G.P.A- The Boss Of the educational institution
SCENE 1 ( 10p and 5p are having a meeting with cgpa)
CGPA – “Hello 10p how are you, how is your studies goin on ?”
10p – “Hello sir , studies is not goin on that good , exams are
nearing and I have only revised the sylaabus thrice.”
CGPA – “Don’t woorry you will do fine , you are our college’s hope …..etc etc….”
5p –“ Ehm .. Excuse me sir..”
CGPA- “Yes what do you want , say quickly, don’t waste my time”
5p – “Sir you had called both of us for a meeting, you are acting as
though I am not present”
10p- “How does it matter. Everyone knows this year I am going to walk
away with the best pay package”
5p –“Does that mean you can talk to me like this?..........”
CGPA – “He has all the reason to do so, after all he is a 10p”
Sp – “Sir are you forgetting the fact that I am also a student if this
institute. I also competed against the same kids and qualified and
even got a good rank.Isn’t this enough to show I am not a fool as you
think I am “
CGPA- “It doesn’t matter, you have proved yourself worthless here.I
called you here because we were contemplating on the fact whether to
allow you to sit in the placements or not, seeing your record”
10p –“Very true sir , he will bring shame to the institute”
5p-“Just because I scored less than you does not mean I am inferior,
in fact I know a lot of things you don’t, you are just….”
CGPA – “You have the audacity to challenge the best student of the
campus, very well.I am giving you a chance to sit for the placement
but you will make a mockery of yourself, just look at you you area a
mere 5p , you are below the normal people …………………….”
5p - “Scoring marks is in no way proportional to knowledge. Just
because I refuse to mug does not mean I don’t know anyhting.Anyway
thank you sir for your kind words..”
SCENE 2 (JUDGEMRNT DAY DAY OF PLACEMENTS- 1Op and 5p are sitting
outside ?nescafe fully dressed)
10p is assured of his success, he has even prepared his victory
speech. 5p is quite tense and nervous
Enter Anna
Anna to both of them – “Hi I am Anna, guys I need a little help urgently”
10p – “I m abc.I m a 10 p”
Anna- “HUH….EXCUSE ME”
5p – “My name is xyz and I m not a 10p(pun intented)”
10p – “Are you a student , what’s your c.g,”
Anna- “I am not a student……”
10p –“Then don’t bug me , I have to concentate”
5p to Anna – “What is your problem?
Anna – “I need someone to come with me urgently , need a hand in
something and I don’t know the area. I can’t trust strangers. It’s imp
, you guys are students right? I need your help urgently . Please”
5p – “I have an inteview to give”
Anna – “Itll only take a little while.”
5p – “Ohh ok….”
Anna – “Thanks , see I need to …”
So 5p and Anna go to Vasco to do her work.On the way back
Anna – “Thanks dude I owe you know”
5p – “No problem………….”
Anna- “You seem a bit tensed, about the interview…”
So 5p tells her his present state
Anna – “Ohh .. never mind about the c.g.I bet they will like the fact
that you have done so many projects and other stuff”
5p – “I hope so “
So after that 10p and 5p go to give the interviews .10p comes out of
the interview hall saying ‘carcked it man’
5p is really nervous , but goes inside
Inside – There are 4 to 5 people sitting , but in the corner seat is …………..Anna
5p is amazed but does not show it
During the interview they ask him all sorts of questions and weird
stuff. 5p tries to answer all but honestly says no in whatever he
doesn’t know.
Interview over .
In the evening that day
5p is waiting restlessly for the result while he sees Anna coming up to him
5p – “Hi , I didn’t know you were in the interview panel . I would
have behaved better else”
Anna- “Don’t mind bottomline is our company has selected you “
5p is shocked , numb and is at loss of words
5p – “ Thank you , thanks…………..”
Anna – “Don’t thank me I didn’t do a thing. They were impressed by
your skills and stright forward attitude”
5p – “Wow this is crazy……….”
Anna – “So where’s my treat….won’t you treat me “
5p-“Ya , but will you go I mean ………”
Anna- “Ya you’re a nice guy..”
So Anna and 5p go to Shahi to celebrate his success. As story goes 10p
cracked the interview and is now working in a software company. 5p
also got a job , did well there and now owns his own firm.And by the
way he is happliy married to Anna :D

YOU ARE SPECIAL

There is no other one like you
No other as special as you
No other in the world has your smile
No one in the world has a heart like you , so fragile
You have your own dreams to achieve
To fulfill those all the blessings may you receive
There is none other who has your laughter
May you laugh your way through life and it’s slaughter
No one cries like you when you are in grief
I pray that these moments in your life be but brief
There can be none a better than friend than you
I have always found a shelter in your friendship , in you
The way you walk , the way you talk are one of kind
All the cheer and joy of you do remind
Were you always like this , so nice ?
It’s unbelievable you are there in this world full of vice
You have a smile as beautiful as red roses in spring
You’re eyes sparkle with joy ,all the joy that they bring
You are special , you ought to know it
Coz what you have , many are far from it
God made you in the palm of his hand
You are his own child , that you should understand
So today I feel very happy to declare
That you are very special , and for you do we care

DEAR FRIEND

You were there when I was in need
You were there when I was in dire straits , indeed
You did not leave my side when I was in gloom
You supported me when life’s flower was not in bloom
You were like the air ,always around
You were my aide while others could not be found
You were like the polar star, always there
You showed me the correct path , the path that was fair
You were my worst critic always pointing out the mistakes
You were best fan, making me happy no matter what it takes
You were like the morning dew always pure
You stood with me always so sure
You made me do crazy things which I would never done
You made sure that all the knots in my life were undone
So today from the bottom of my heart
I pray that nothing do us apart

COME ON NOW SMILE SUNSHINE

What happed if you could not get what you wanted
What happened if your wish was not granted
You will surely succeed the next time
So wipe your tears for the last time
Come on now smile sunshine

Sorrow is like your elderly aunt
It comes once in a while
And what you want it will not grant
But it only stays for a short while
Come on now smile sunshine

You won’t get anything by fretting over what happened
What is gone is gone what has happened has happened
You had no control over things early on
From now take control of your life right now right on
Come on now smile sunshine

Always remember there are people backing you
To whom the most important person is you
They eagerly wait to see you happy and laughing
They want you to start over again ,to see you striving
So come on now smile sunshine

WHY

Why is this dullness , this sorrow
Why is there no life even if we have to borrow
Why today brothers fight against their own
Why in the heart of man seeds of hatred as sown
Why today people are bent on fighting
Why sibling is against sibling
Why today we can’t see the larger view
Why today we have such a partial view
Why today a line on the map is reason enough to kill
Why kids are given guns to play, why this skill
Why can’t we live in peace and harmony
Why can’t we listen to the music of love, it’s symphony
Why can’t we forget our differences and extend
Why are we bent on bringing this world to it’s terrible end
Why do we forget that we all are the same
Why do we forget that we all pray in the same name
Why are there still thousands of hungry mouths to feed
Why is there much with some , none where the need
Why do I still see crying faces, their eyes brimming
Why are there many clouds but no silver lining
Why are there so many questions but no answer
Why …….

SUNSET

The sky is lit with red as bright as fire
There is a hue of crimson only as much as you desire
A border of blue can be seen dabbed with a golden glow
Not to forget orange , indigo and all the colors of the rainbow
Surely it is the work of an artist , such a masterpiece
The whole sky is the canvas the whole as a single piece
The red reminds you of love and of passion
The blue reminds you of mercy and compassion
Every other color has some meaning and a reason
Why it was used in used and what does it beckon
The sun, the shiny mass sinks in the sea lighting it on fire
One fails to understand this wonder no matter how much you aspire
How the sky is ablaze even as you gaze
How the end of day marks the beginning of another, the transition phase
Why in the atmosphere there is a silent lull
But the setting is in no way dull
How among the sadness there is a slight joy only a slight tinge
Why you wait for it all day and what is that pain that binge
When this beautiful work of god passes away
You hope there was more of it even as you go away

THE ROAD LESS TRAVELLED

I spent these years of my life
Following the easy path
But I didn’t succeed in my strife
So I have decided to take
The road less travelled
The road were nobody treads
The road which everybody dreads
The road is bumpy , the road is long
The road is as silent as death’s own song
I stand here alone waiting for company
I waited for a long time but I didn’t get any
I must begin my journey soon
I was waiting from the morning and it’s already noon
I know the journey is not easy
This thought often makes me uneasy
But then the road is sure
And it will lead to the destination most pure
I look back to see if there is anyone
I look back but I see none
I will wait some more
I have decided now I can’t turn over
I must follow the road
The road less travelled
The road less travelled…..